Tomorrow morning at 7:30 a.m. I am supposed to report to the hospital to be oriented and whatever else they think is necessary. I am a tad anxious about it....the last time I was there the nurses kept calling me "doctor"...no my name is "this" to which they responded "But you have earned it!!". Alright, I have earned it. However, "doctor" is what I will be doing not who I am.
I feel like there is so much I have to learn from everyone around me...I mean everyone. Walking around calling myself doctor makes me feel like I am telling everyone that I know what I am doing all the time, which would not be true.
How am I going to handle this year of training....so that it does not kill my spirit because 80-hour work weeks can do that...kill your spirit I mean. I will try to be more proactive, decide how to react to things and not just react. Also, I will keep the end goal in mind...caring about the patient and being thankful for the opportunity to learn. I will just remember who I am. This is what I am hoping to do.
I will come back and read this...when I am having a really horrible time. I chose this path, because there was nothing else that would make me happy. So I will embrace the experience and let it teach me to be a better physician and person.
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